Being able to define depression in its entirety is a very difficult, if not impossible, task. And that’s because it is a condition which is very varied in terms of its symptoms and in terms of the way it affects people.
There are also numerous forms of depression and often these ‘categories’ overlap, leaving sufferers with a hotchpotch of debilitating symptoms.
However, one thing’s for sure and that’s that this devastating illness makes sufferers lose all sense of hope and seems to eradicate the mere prospect of happiness in their lives.
Take a read of the following stories shared by people who know firsthand how draining and crippling it is to live with a mental health condition like depression:
1. There is seemingly no real solution
“The weight is a physical reaction to all of the uncontrolled irrational thinking. The more irrational thinking the heavier the weight becomes making me need to lay down. The more laying down the more irrational thinking and sleep I think I need to escape it. Then the harder it is to do the smallest tasks.”
2. Your body becomes a prison
“It’s like being trapped inside your own body; your body is your prison and you can’t escape. You are literally living inside of this cell that houses your organs.”
3. You feel totally empty inside
“Emptiness. Complete and total emptiness. Like there’s nothing inside of you; no heart, no emotion, no energy, no life – nothing.”
4. You feel incapable of dealing with your depression
“Unbearable at times.”
The symptoms described by the following sufferers of depression get a lot more heartwrenching from here on out. Sufferers feel physical pain as well as mental and emotional pain, and it can feel hellishly overwhelming at times.
5. It’s not just about emotional pain
“Physical pain, day and night.”
Take a look at the video below to learn more about what it’s like to live with this crippling condition:
6. It is almost dreamlike
“Like a daze…”
7. Constantly feeling down
“Anxiety, sadness, low self esteem, feeling mentally and physically drainer, and like it is never going to get any better.”
8. It’s painful in every sense of the word
“Pain; mentally and physically.”
9. You feel like you’re dead
“Depression feels like death; only you’re living it. You wake up because your body tells you to, not because you want to, and you continue through every day like a zombie because your will to live is gone. You are dead inside, but your body is still alive and functioning.”
10. It makes everything difficult
11. Your life feels drab
12. It affects your self-worth
“A complete lack of self-confidence.”
13. You feel completely helpless
“Helplessness. Depression feels like there is no help and no hope. You were born this way and this is the way you will live. It’s debilitating and diminishes your will to live.”
14. You feel like a zombie
“Depression feels like a zombie apocalypse of your life. Walking Dead? Walking alive yet being so incredibly dead.”
15. It’s inherently dark
“Depression is a dark, inescapable place. It’s like being locked in a room with no light, windows or door. It’s so dark you can’t even see your hands in front of your face let alone find a way out.”
16. It feels like you’re falling endlessly
“Slipping into depression feels like falling down a dark bottomless shaft, wondering if and when your fall will ever be caught. And as you look back to where you fell from–which is where you know you need to get back to–you can see it receding further into the distance, the proverbial light becoming dimmer and dimmer, while the shaft into which you are falling becomes deeper, darker, and all the more enveloping.”
17. It feels like your mind has been invaded by another
“Depression to me is like having your mind replaced by another one that makes me feel worthless and numb to life–even to my own husband and son. It deprives me of feeling anything other than a sense of perpetual sadness, never quite knowing the source of it but knowing that feeling well.
Depression has stolen my confidence and now I no longer feel I am worthy of anyone’s love. Depression calls me names and makes me have awful thoughts, and there have been times when depression has won and I’ve taken an overdose.”
18. You feel confined
“It’s like being stuck in a box that you can’t get out of–a very dark place where you feel so low that even simple tasks are difficult. You feel completely alone.”
19. You feel like you cannot get through to other people
“Standing underneath a floor of glass, screaming and banging on it trying to get the attention of the rest of the world going about their lives without you. The problem is no one can hear you or even knows you’re trapped there.”
20. A common comparison
“Like the death eaters in Harry Potter have caught you and sucked all the goodness from you.”
Ultimately, regardless of how your depression affects you, it is a devastating condition which can claim lives if gone untreated
If you relate to any of these stories or feel that the symptoms that you have been experiencing stem from depression, we would urge you to seek medical help.
If you need someone to talk to about your depression with, you can call the Crisis Call Center on 1-800-273-8255. Their lines are open 24 hours a day, completely free of charge.